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There's nothing I can say to rant about that 2000+ and counting people haven't already said, so rather than rant, I'll just say that in short, I'm jumping on the bandwagon and ranting about the stupid new comment system.

Oh, LJ. Why do you feel the need to fix things that aren't broken?

So I've been up all night because I can't sleep, because my protagonist has suddenly started to take shape and the getting is good for writing right now. I don't know how it is for other people, but for me, writing is either feast or famine. I mean when it's famine I still write anyway, even though it's dry and tasteless and makes no sense. I've got this whole folder of stuff I wrote through famine periods, because my fingers move on the keyboard no matter what. But when it's feast, it flows endlessly and it's like I have some weird connection to some distant world of magic or something that sends these thoughts and this sort of weird wisdom I'm sure I don't really have into my fingers, through my heart and not my brain. Like, my brain has no part of writing when it's feast.

But the point of all this is that I was thinking that I want to be annoyed because my writing won't let me sleep, but all I can be is happy because all I can think about is how much I LOVE WRITING. Seriously, it's the one thing I've been consistently passionate about since I could form coherent thoughts. Before I could hold a pencil I would come up with these long and complicated tales on my head and draw them out in scribbles, and then in grade school I'd tap out these stupid long stories on notebook paper, and then eventually I moved on to writing horror novels in notebooks in high school. And then I discovered writing on the computer and I was pumping out thousands of words a week of crappy fanfiction and horrific tales of the occult, endlessly, until it started becoming something like actual novels. I think I've morphed into a completely separate person at least four times since I got really into writing, but this crazy blinding passion for it is something that's remained consistent no matter what, no matter how sad or scared or self-loathing or stupid or jaded or whatever else I've ever been I was, writing still WORKED. It's like this connection to something outside of myself, something bigger, some other world that I can only scrape a little bit of fairy dust off the edge of when I write. Is this what it feels like for monks when they meditate? Is this that sublime state of mind they reach, or what? Am I tasting it a little bit? It's so exciting to think about, and it makes me so damn happy.

So wow... that was a novel in itself, wasn't it? XD I guess the point of this is that it's good to have passion for at least one thing, even if it's just purely recreational like mine is.

So what's your passion? Comment here, or write up your own minirant and link me to it. I want to know <3

So, guess who forgot to post about NaNoWriMo until the middle of the month? *derp*



This year I'm writing a horror novel called Redsel. It's mostly about this area of the woods where something horrible happened in the 1800's, and now it's more or less cursed and people who end up there (whether by coincidence or by fate conspiring or something) have to deal with some pretty awful things.I won't give much away, but it's hella gruesome so far, guys.

If you guys wanna become buddies, my NaNo page is here <3

Also, I've been getting a lot of people asking when I'm going to update How to Make Love Like a Host, and the answer is: soon, but next month at the soonest. With NaNo going on I don't have any time for fanfiction and I'm sorry, guys D:

So, tell me about you guys' NaNo novels if you're doing it, 'kay? I want to know.

So, I finally got a code to join Dreamwidth 8D

http://starlightstarbright.dreamwidth.org/

You guys should totally friend me if you're already there. If not, I can get you your own invite code so you can join. Just let me know and I'll grab you one!

I like The Grudge 2 WAY better than The Grudge. I thought The Grudge was completely stupid and cheesy, like an exact copy of Ju-On only not scary... and then I saw the sequel. I actually cried a little out of fear XD it's pretty hard to scare me, so I really appreciated that movie. I made me happy. I recently bought it at a garage sale and rewatched it. Still scary.

So as far that fandom goes, for me it's just Ju-On and then The Grudge 2. The Grudge and Ju-On 2 were both pretty stupid. Don't remember how I feel about The Grudge 3 anymore. All I remember is that it reminded me of Silent Hill 4 a little too much.

So, I still don't have my computer fixed. Haven't for months. So what have I been spending all my non-writing free time doing, you ask? Why, making icons, my good chum! I've made hundreds of them. Some of them (mostly Ouran ones XD) are on my flash drive, but others I didn't save but left floating around Photobucket instead. So, I figured I'd share the PB ones now. They're for various characters and fandoms. When a character caught my fancy I'd just go and make a bunch of icons of them XD

you can find the icons here

I'll probably be adding more off and on as time passes. A couple of them aren't icons but other graphics that　I made for my sister x3 Enjoy!

I'll share the Ouran ones later XD this is what I get for actually saving them and not being lazy.

So, I received my copy of Silent Hill 3 in the mail yesterday.

Played it for about an hour so far.

Already in love with Heather Mason.

End of story.

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Things have improved quite a bit over the past several months. I've gotten pretty busy as of late, which is always a good thing. As it turns out my grandma is alright, and she's planning to come for a visit next month. I've landed a job with Lia Sophia and things are going surprisingly well with it so far. All in all, I'm feeling much better. Thanks again to those of you who cheered me up so much. You know who you are <3 Still no news about Sarah, but I guess things could be worse; no news is good news. With any luck, she'll be alright.

I've been avoiding using this account as a sort of self-punishment for a while, because I pulled some stupid wank in a comm a while back XD I don't know why I felt like I had to; it's not like anyone holds long-standing grudges because of something that happens on the internet. Still, I feel like an ass for some of the stuff I said, but I suppose there's not much else I can do. I accidentally deleted the entry while trying to edit it on my iPod, so it's not even as though the source of the wank exists anymore, and I apologized to everyone involved. Still, I'm a guilt horse.

Speaking of wank, I've spent the afternoon becoming immersed in Tara Gilesbie's "My Immortal", which is possibly the worst, most mind-numbing thing I've ever read, but it's just too funny not to enjoy in some sick, masochistic way. It's been deleted from FFN for years, but you can find info on it as well as read the actual fic here if you haven't already (a direct link to the actual fic's text can be found here). It's just hysterical. For those unfamiliar with this muddled mystery of a fic, it's basically a teenage girl with no common sense's version of what Harry Potter would be like if everyone was a goth, a vampire, a prep, just a plain douchebag, or a weird mix of all three and mysteriously lost their original characterizations somewhere along the way. I haven't stopped laughing since I started reading chapter one. The focus of the story is on a stereotypical "gothic" Mary Sue. It's just too horrifying and amusing not to be fattening. It's the official worst fanfic ever written. You have GOT to read it. I'm not even kidding.

Well... I'll probably post my reactions upon finishing what's been written of said fic later XD for now, I'm off to melt my brain with it until it's over with.

PS: I'm currently working on another monster of a fic since Duet is finished. My sister volunteered to beta it, but still hasn't started (it's been several months). It's a Silent Hill one... I want to get it done before I start my next Ouran one because I know the Ouran one will get all of my attention XD so if any of you would like to take a look at it for grammar and continuity errors, I'd appreciate it.